Mentally

Seeing parts that are not on the body. Pinching fat that is not there. Staring at the consistent spots that appear on the face. Forgetting about the visible birthmark that no one mentions. Randomly thinking about the one hair that grows on the chin and is plucked away when noticed. Wondering when the much needed dental work will be done. Having hope that one day a cure will be found for the condition that exists. Sometimes wondering if the legs are too long. Feeling a little self-conscious about the feet. Smiling when being called beautiful. Frowning when not seeing it for oneself. Crying at the fear of being alone. Never wanting to be a disappointment. Always trying so hard to be everything. Having little luck at shaking the feeling of being nothing. Always seeing into the happiness of others. Waiting to feel happiness return. Finding that happy place every once in a while to smile. Fighting tears when thinking alone for too long. Sees the loved ones with a loved one yet to be found. Still can't see the same for self. Have the prediction of being nothing more than a friend to anyone. Having the optimism that things will be different. Wanting to be a success. Randomly feeling like a failure. Embracing life as it is. Rejecting life as it is. Striving to be better. Desiring to stay the same. Learning new things. Harboring old feelings. Thinking about the past. Seeing a brighter future. Figuring out what is wanted. Craving intimacy and affection. Longing for love and romance. Letting go of pain and hurt. Constantly wanting the best for others. Can't pinpoint the best for self. Emotionally torn apart. Seeming to always be able to smile at some point. Never liking to make others feel negatively. Not always feeling positively. Experiencing days of joy. Encountering days of sadness. Feelings of trying too hard. Greater feelings of not trying hard enough. Loves solitude. Hates confrontation. Talks too much. Doesn't talk enough. Confused. Depressed. Happy. Content. Love. Pain. Hurt. Recovery. Affectionate. Romantic. Passionate. Reserved. Nervous. Anxious. Paranoid. Scared. Intimidated. Brave. Outspoken. Quiet. Loves hard. Highly sympathetic. Strives for happiness. Feels lots of sadness. Wants to uplift others. Repeats positive things to uplift self. Smiles to self. Hugs self. Embraces self. Slowly starts to love self a drop more each day...learning to have self control all the way around and build oneself in the positive way. Sees nothing but blue, clear skies even on a rainy day...