An outlet and expression of thoughts and feelings that are put in a place to never be heard or seen...
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Heightened Darkness
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Grooving
Just That...
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Craving
Monday, August 15, 2011
Out of Body Experience
It's like a movie that only her mind can record. It's a feeling that can't be matched. She watches as he touches her body and caresses her skin with his head between her legs. She watches as her body can't control itself and wants to move more and more as she feels his tongue working her pussy. She jerks at his sucking. She sees how she shakes when she cums in his mouth, and she silently laughs at her reaction. She sees the look on her face that is craving for more but knows she won't say it because she is catching her breath. She watches him walk towards her with his new toy and the condom he just put on. They both smile. She opens her legs to invite him in as he turns her body towards him. She watches as he lifts her legs up to his body and slides inside. She plays spectator to her eyes closing to the feeling of his dick fitting rightfully in her pussy. She silently chuckles at the sound of the vibrating object in his hand that he places on her clit. She loves the faces that she makes when she moans, and she can't help to see the enjoyment in his eyes to her reaction. The combination of the vibes and the strokes overpower her body, and she lets her attention fade off of them for a few moments as she feels her body do things it never has as she is experiencing something she has never felt. Slowly, she comes back to see herself squirting everywhere. The ecstasy that is running through her body is enough to make her want to scream. She can't take her eyes off the way her pussy is continuously cumming over and over again, making the both of them wetter and wetter. She loved the way he was making his dick drown in it and never stopped stroking. She was laughing at the way she lost control when he sucked her titties with his dick deep inside, but she knows how incredible he feels and how much she loves that. As he continues to work her body, she continues to watch him put down the A+ game she loves so much. She watches as he continues to prove why he is the best. She looks on as he turns her over. She knows what is coming next. She watches him fuck her pussy in the fashion she enjoys from the back. She felt him going deeper with each stroke. She saw in her face the expressions she makes when she cums. She saw him breathing harder. She heard him groan. Her favorite thing to hear. She ever so gracefully returned just in time to feel him pull out and play with her even more, making her squirt all over the bed while still bent over. Round 2 was definitely something she will never forget...
Mentally
Seeing parts that are not on the body. Pinching fat that is not there. Staring at the consistent spots that appear on the face. Forgetting about the visible birthmark that no one mentions. Randomly thinking about the one hair that grows on the chin and is plucked away when noticed. Wondering when the much needed dental work will be done. Having hope that one day a cure will be found for the condition that exists. Sometimes wondering if the legs are too long. Feeling a little self-conscious about the feet. Smiling when being called beautiful. Frowning when not seeing it for oneself. Crying at the fear of being alone. Never wanting to be a disappointment. Always trying so hard to be everything. Having little luck at shaking the feeling of being nothing. Always seeing into the happiness of others. Waiting to feel happiness return. Finding that happy place every once in a while to smile. Fighting tears when thinking alone for too long. Sees the loved ones with a loved one yet to be found. Still can't see the same for self. Have the prediction of being nothing more than a friend to anyone. Having the optimism that things will be different. Wanting to be a success. Randomly feeling like a failure. Embracing life as it is. Rejecting life as it is. Striving to be better. Desiring to stay the same. Learning new things. Harboring old feelings. Thinking about the past. Seeing a brighter future. Figuring out what is wanted. Craving intimacy and affection. Longing for love and romance. Letting go of pain and hurt. Constantly wanting the best for others. Can't pinpoint the best for self. Emotionally torn apart. Seeming to always be able to smile at some point. Never liking to make others feel negatively. Not always feeling positively. Experiencing days of joy. Encountering days of sadness. Feelings of trying too hard. Greater feelings of not trying hard enough. Loves solitude. Hates confrontation. Talks too much. Doesn't talk enough. Confused. Depressed. Happy. Content. Love. Pain. Hurt. Recovery. Affectionate. Romantic. Passionate. Reserved. Nervous. Anxious. Paranoid. Scared. Intimidated. Brave. Outspoken. Quiet. Loves hard. Highly sympathetic. Strives for happiness. Feels lots of sadness. Wants to uplift others. Repeats positive things to uplift self. Smiles to self. Hugs self. Embraces self. Slowly starts to love self a drop more each day...learning to have self control all the way around and build oneself in the positive way. Sees nothing but blue, clear skies even on a rainy day...
Snap Snap
The scissors are sitting there in front of my face. I remember when I put them down so many months ago. Tying each and every string tighter and tighter so that I knew we would never be apart. I watched as we wrapped ourselves into them and laughed happily as they engulfed our bodies. We never thought that they were intoxicating, but we knew they were slowly and surely growing. What started off as just one became great in numbers. The strength of the strings were weak, but together, they held on strong. He couldnt see it, but my hand was always free behind my back, reaching into the cookie jar when he wasnt paying attention and always ready to start cutting if need be. I knew that the sound of the strings snapping into pieces would hurt because they were attached to our hearts along with ropes. Loving each other kept the strings alive. My free hand made sure they stayed loose. One day, I started untying them, thinking that maybe being tied up with him was not where I needed to be. We fussed. We tossed. We loved. We cried. As time went on, they fell one after another. Only I could see that the strings were disappearing, but I knew I couldnt get rid of the ones tied to my heart that easily. His voice was heartbreaking when I told him the strings were disappearing. He couldnt understand that I was still attached to him. My love for him is not on a string, but my heart is anchored with many ropes wrapped and double knotted in ways I dont understand. My mind wonders to him. My love for him makes me long for him. Thoughts of his intimacy occassionally cloud my brain. Remembrance of his affection intrude my senses from time to time. Still in my dreams is he. The scissors won't be enough for the task at hand, so the knife that I'm cutting with is expected to work. As the first rope falls to the floor, the pain is felt, but it goes away at a steady pace. I push away the rope that's cut trying to forget the strings that are gone. As the tears come and go, as sleepless nights come and leave, as memories replay and disappear, the cutting must continue...the detachment is what we both is waiting for.