Never Finding An Escape

Having that same feeling is something that burns inside. Just going day by day knowing that its a feeling that cannot be shook. Wow is one way to describe the fifth or sixth time to feel it inside, but when it is constantly returning and can't be ignored, what more can a person do. What is this feeling? Fear. Fear that the dreams that are sat out in the head are never going to go through. The fear that there will never be a wedding or that the relationship won't last. Fear that the more and more people will walk away and never come back. Fear that the career will never happen. Fear that the next test will not be passed and that the person that matters the most will not come through. This feeling has so much attached to it, and yet it can be taken never be completely taken away. For those that are believers in God, the fear of Him is the only fear that is to exist. What about those that don't? Will fear live in them forever? To be afraid, to be scared, to be petrified of things that are in our control and are not. To eat, to sleep, to breath with it form time to time but at least once everyday...never to be taken down but never to build a momentum so strong that it becomes overpowering...Pushing a person away, shunning the world, bringing about emotions that have never been touched...Fear can do it...And for a split second, happiness takes fear to a place that cannot be ruined or penetrated. Met its match and will never when the war, it doesn't try to to take over the world of positivity and does not stand a chance in living there...but it won't go down without a fight. The feeling rears it ugly head and plants a seed that never stops growing and dying only to plant another seed and regrow again...like a leaf on a tree. The circle of negative and positive...the circle of fear and relief...Never finding an escape from that reoccurring feeling...Wonder when its going to come back to visit...